I made it!!

I have to say making it to day 8 of working out is awesome. They say once you do something 7 times it become a habit. I have to say that I didn't even think about anything else once I woke up. I simply put my work out cloths on and worked out. It was a little easier this morning than it was last Monday but was still a challenge. I have 4 more days on this workout video and then I move onto the next DVD which is harder than this one. I am looking forward to being able to keep up with the one that I am on now. Not looking forward to learning the next one. Its like learning a new dance routine. I am no dancer. My mom would call me Grace when I was little and it was for a reason. I am the least graceful person that there is. If I have to move the top part of my body and the lower part of my body in opposite directions it can be entertaining. I find my self laugh at myself daily. That is the other reason I hate it when someone is watching me. Because I then become entertainment for them.

I am also moving onto week two of no fast food. Yesterday I was craving a hamburger and fries. I know that denying your body things that you crave can often roll you into over eating. I went to the store and got whole wheat buns and sweet potato fries. We had turkey burgers here. Allan grilled up the turkey burgers on the BBQ and I bakes the sweet potato fries. I used avacto instead of mayo, spicy mustard, lettus, tomato, and provolone cheese. It took that craving right away. I am trying to cut back on the amount that I am eating. I find myself hungry after eating a serving and its been really hard to stop eating. I find if I drink some water and wait a half hour the hunger goes away. It amazes me how many fat grams and calories are in the fast food. There is a reason its called fast food. I think it should be called FATTY FAST FOOD!

I am hoping that the cravings will stop soon. I know it will take time to get it out of my system but I am going to be strong and fight the erge to splurge. Working out in the morning has been a huge help because I don't want to do it for nothing. It helps me remember that if I eat crap not only will I feel like crap but the work out will be for nothing. I am too lazy to waste my time and energy. I am starting to feel my energy level get up there. My mood has been better and I am sure that has to do with my new crazy pills too. Thank god for them.

Life sure is a challenge sometimes. You have to have a healthy mind and body. I think that getting your mind healthy can be a little more difficult than a healthy body. At least that goes for me. Raising teenagers can be a challenge and sometime I want to give up. I love them dearly but its hard to work with people that know it all! I swear! I tell them they should get a really good paying job while they still know everything because once you are in your 20's all those great ideas and thoughts go away! I remember being a teenager and I wish I had gotten a great job then. I might be rich now. I knew it all.

Well I guess that is enough of my rambling. Sorry about a few of the miss spelled words hopefully you will be able to figure out what I am saying. Spell check couldn't !!

Day 6

Damn that Jillian Micheals!!! I woke up stiffer than a brand new dollar bill. But I still managed to do some low key yoga to stretch it out. So I made it to day 7 of working out. It was a close one that I was going to skip today. Even Allan said give it a rest let your body rest. I knew that if I didn't stretch it out today I wouldn't be able to move tomorrow. I don't want to break my routine but being to sore to work out on Monday.

I was up a pound this morning. This is why I hate weighing every day. I think that this week I am going to try to only weigh in on Mondays and see how that goes.

Not much to say today.

Day 5

Humm well today is day 6 of work outs. I thought I was going to do Yoga to just keep myself moving and in a routine of working out but not a hard work out. I don't know what I was thinking when I decided to do Jillian Micheals yoga work out!!! KICKED my ass. It was harder than my usual work out during the week. I was shaking when I was done and I had to stop a few times in the middle of it. I don't know what part of my brain thought it would be relaxing!

Today I am down 5.8 pounds. I was surprised when I got on the scale today that I lost anything because Allan and I went out to dinner last night and had drinks with friends after. It was only.8 pounds but it was a loss so I have to count it, RIGHT?

I am starting to feel like I have more energy and I am sleeping better at night. I am not sure if it is that I am drinking less caffeine or if it is working out. I am sure it is a little bit of both.

I have the 3rd job interview with NAI West on Monday and I really want the job I am worried though its going to hinder my working out in the mornings. I like working out in the mornings because I get it over with and don't have to think about it the rest of the day. But I also don't want to get up at the butt crack of dawn to work out either. I am so not a morning person. I guess I will just have to wait and see. Its only 30 hours per week so maybe I wont have to be there until later in the morning. I am hoping it will be like 10 to 4 that would be perfect. Allan thinks it will be 9 to 3 which still will be okay too. I would only have to get up at 6:30. But 10 would be better because then I could get up at 7:30 and that is much better. I hate to even think about it because I don't want to count on it or think that I have it before I know. When I went in for the testing the girl giving me the test told me that I was the only one they tested. I thought that was a good sign. I am nervous about the interview on Monday because it is 4 people. The 4 people that I would be working for. Its more of a personality test I guess. To see if the other guys will like me. The girl that had the job before me was promoted to the Presidents assistant. Looks like I have big shoes to fill. However they had hired someone else and she isn't working out. I feel bad for taking someone else's job but I can't control that. They told me that she was just not working out and they have tried to work with her but she doesn't follow through with the things that they ask her to do. I know that I can do that. I have also always wanted to be someones assistant. The girl that tested me told me its just like having children only they are grown men. She said its like nagging them and getting paid. I can nag!!!

Well I guess that is all for now.

Day 4

Today is day 4 for my posts but 5 days of working out in a row. This morning I woke up with a huge head ache and thought "GREAT! I can't work out with this damn thing!" I took something for it and drank a little coffee. I think its caffeine with drawl. I haven't totally stopped drinking it but I have cut it in half. I am not sure I can totally give up my diet coke. My kids keep telling me that I have to give myself a treat once in a while. The part they don't understand is that sometimes I can't stop at one treat. Last night was a good example, I wasn't hungry but I was bored. So I thought to my self "I better get ride of all the candy left from Christmas." Instead of throwing it away, I ate it!!! But not all of it. I left one chocolate marshmallow Santa. I did eat one peanut butter cup christmas tree and on chocolate marshmallow Santa. I was sick!!! Its amazing that after not eating crap for just the small amount of time that I have that I would get sick. Normally that would be no problem for me.

I think I was unsatisfied with dinner and that is the other reason I reached for the sweet little treats. I was planning on making chicken, red potatoes and green beans for dinner. When I went to bake the chicken there was a stinky ass smell coming from the chicken. I was grossed out and ended up eating eggs and toast. The smell of the chicken totally set the mood for my tummy. I was sick after I ate the eggs. I guess I thought candy would make me feel better... NOPE!!! I kind of got side tract from my head ache. So my head ache went away and Allan had to leave so I worked out. I hate working out when he is home or up because he always has to come down and watch me. Makes me nuts. He says its because I was super cute. But I think he just likes to watch my boobs bounce. Men are such perves!!

I am trying to weigh myself everyday. I have heard not to weigh everyday and I have heard that people that weigh everyday loose more weight. I am going to try it for a while and see what happens. I guess the weighing everyday will help me see where I am and maybe motivate me. But I can see how it can hinder me too. I tend to go up and down 3 or 4 pounds then drop the 3 to 4 pounds and start it all over again. That can be frustrating.

I guess that is all for today. Hope you are all doing well on your new challenges for the year.

Day 3

Today is day 3 of posting and day 4 of working out. This mornings work out was a little harder for me to force my way through it. I just kept telling my self that today I am down another 2 pounds. I already met my first goal and that was get under the 200 mark! It seems like that has been my goal for so long. I drop then gain. I know that some of it is that I just give up. Allan is good the first 2 days about supporting me. But he really isn't good at being a a good weigh loss buddy. Last night he had Shaleigh make banana bread! Lucky for me, I don't really care about it. I told him he sucks as a support system.

Today is my visit with the doctor to check out all my stuff. I know that I have gained since I was last there, which bums me out. But I am not giving up.

I did decide to change my work out a little. I am going to do intense work out 5 days and then on the weekends do yoga. I think my body will need the break but I think that if I stop for the weekends right now it will get me out of the habit. Right now I need habits that don't include McDonalds french fries. I did get a caffeine head ache yesterday and drank half a diet soda. I think that one step at a time is a good thing. If I give it all up at once that is a recipe for failure for me. Eating healthy and working out is my current goal. Since I met my first goal on getting below 200 my next goal is to get under 190. I figure 10 pounds at a time. Baby steps.

Well today I have a test to take for a job that I think will be good. So off I go.

Thanks for all your support and maybe next time I will be able to say "I GOT A JOB"

Day 2

Today is day 2 of my post and day 3 of my work out. Work out was hard this morning. I am sore and felt like puking when I was done. But I did it.

I got on the scale and dropped 3.2 pounds WOOOOOHOOO! That is always a good thing. Tomorrow I go see Dr Nancy to see how much weight is water and how much is muscle (not table muscle either) and how much is fat. That is my least favorite part.

I am determined this time to get healthy. Not to loose weight but to be healthy. Okay I wont lie loosing weight will be nice too but to be healthy will be a huge bonus.

I have a job interview today, so keep your fingers crossed for me. So my post will be short but I wanted to make sure to get something in today.

Talk to you tomorrow.

New Year New challenges

Its the first of the year. New Years resolutions are just something else to fail at. I have decided that I am not having resolutions just new challenges. I have decided to do it one week at a time. Small steps, small goals. First goal is to work out 7 days in a row. So far 2 days in a row. Five more days to go. I can do anything for 5 days.

My long term goal is to loose 40 pounds. I am also going to post pictures each month on the same day. Well maybe not post the ones in my swimming suite quite yet. I have gained so much weight and I can't stand it anymore. I wish I was one of those people that just sets my mind to it and do it. I have a friend that just said to her self I am loosing 30 to 40 pounds and she did it. Seemed like to me it just fell off of her. She looks amazing. I guess she had a boob job to push her to want to loose it more. I need to think of something that I would like to look forward to having at the end of my 40 pounds. I know that at the end of my 40 pounds will just be another goal of 20 more pounds. Man I am feeling a little sorry for my self I guess.

I look in the mirror and wonder where I went. Buried in all that fat. I feel like my whole life has been a non stop diet or a non stop loose then gain. I need a life change a life adjustment. I need a life coach. Its hard sometimes to depend on just your self. Allan thinks about loosing weight and looses weight. Its not fair men can just drop it like its nothing. I have to work super hard at it. I know that there is the saying anything worth having is hard work.

I usually have a lot of humor about this subject but I have seemed to lost my humor especially when I put my fat pants on yesterday and they were no longer loose. If my life could just settle down. If teenagers could just stop being emotional, if I could just find a good job with benefits, and if I could just find my positive energy.

Well I guess enough of this feeling sorry for myself. Tomorrow will be a better day and another thing I am going to do is try to write a post daily. Maybe it will help hold me accountable for my work outs :)