I know that changing a life style that you have had most of your life is so hard to change at the age of 35, YES almost 36. But slowly I am coming around and making better choices when I eat.
Yesterday was one of those days and I didn't eat enough calories or food. I waited to long to eat breakfast and it ended up being lunch. Then by the time I got home I was so exhausted and STRESSED, I thought about just ordering PIZZA. MMMM the hot cheese and bread MMMM. BUT I snapped out of it came too and ate a granola bar to hold me until dinner. I did end up eating a little Mac & Cheese because I was lazy and had taken a zanex to calm my nerves and then just wanted to lay down and not move. I don't feel guilty about it. I think that is a key thing with trying to loose weight. If you slip up or you indulge in something that isn't on your plan, don't get so caught up in it and say "Well I have completely ruined my day. I might as well finish off the day with a 1/2 a gallon of ice cream and start over tomorrow." Move on in that moment don't beat your self up or you will find your self in this cycle of spinning back to old habits. That is one thing that I have learned from this life long journey.
I never really looked at food as an addiction. But it really is. There is no difference between picking up a cheese burger to make your self feel better, than picking up a beer or some drugs. they are both comforting you. Taking you out of the moment. Taking you from what you are feeling. There is a high with it. You are in control of it. Most of my life I felt out of control. But the one thing I could control, or so I thought, was the amount of food I took in. I would go through fazes where I would starve myself and then I would binge because I was starving. I was talking to a good friend today, who has also struggled with her weight, we were talking about those people that get stressed and can't eat. We both were like PASS IT ON OVER! If you aren't going to eat I will. I am such a stress eater. I have decided to change that. When I am stressed I am going to either go for a walk or Blog. Blogging has seemed to help me a lot. I used to think "who wants to hear what I have to say?" But you know just getting it out almost like a journal has helped me. I do love it when people make comments but really just being able to get it out of my head and on paper or computer has helped.
One of the challenges for me has been learning to eat to live instead of living to eat! I have also learned that you can have some of the same foods that you love you just have to make them a little differently. Sour cream YUMMMM but I actually don't even miss it. I love to have a red potato with a little drizzle of extra virgin olive oil and some Misses Dash seasoning tastes so much better to me. And I don't get sick after eating it. Coffee is another one. LOVE LOVE Dark Chocolate Mocha.... MMMMMM But I can still have my coffee I just make it with Light Vanilla soy milk and splenda. Its not chocolate. But you know I just thought of something I could get light Chocolate soy milk to add that touch of chocolate. HUMMM I am for sure going to have to try that. I love my coffee in the morning!!! I have also replaced chocolate with DARK chocolate. I know what you are thinking its still candy. But the thing I like about it is that you eat a couple pieces and the craving for candy is gone. When I would eat just regular milk chocolate I could eat it until my tummy hurt. Then left me craving more. The Dark doesn't do that to me. Its strange.
Well its time to hit the shower and get ready for the Dr. Thanks to all of you that listen and help me with ideas.....
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Let me know if you need light versions of coffee (chocolate style) drinks. I can help with that :)
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