10 pounds PURE FAT!

Weigh in was yesterday!!

A little disappointed because this morning I was at 193.0 and when I got the the doctor after 3 pm I was at 196.00 BLLAHHHHHH I hate being a girl for that reason. Why can't we just stay the same all day. NOPE we have to gain and loose gain and loose. It really pisses me off!!! She did tell me that being dressed and weighing in the later part of the day is a huge difference. So I felt a little better. But I am going to count my weight loss from my home scale. BECAUSE I LIKE THAT NUMBER BETTER! And I weigh in the mornings without being dressed. (sorry for the visual). I love this doctor. She told me my blood pressure was up a bit. I told her there were some family issues. She asked about it. I told her a little because its such a drama FEST that just gets me worked up. She told me that my grandpa's wife was a BITCH! It was so funny to hear that from her. She is this calm little hippy kinda lady and just super sweet. But I loved it!

Back to my FAT! So I have started to notice clothing fitting different. I don't have to suck it in until I can't breath! Its awesome. The Doctor told me that I have lost 10 pound of PURE FAT! And 8 pounds of lean fat. Which isn't want she wants. So I need to eat more protein and try not to work out as much or for such long periods of time. But she said this month I lost more FAT than Lean Fat. I lost 8 pounds according to her scale in the afternoon for the month with is a total of 18 pounds. But if i weigh in the morning its more like 20 pounds! I am happy with either number. Eight pounds a month is pretty good. 2 pounds a week. I am not wanting to dump the weight so fast because then it will come back faster and then some. I just want to make life style changes and stick with it. Last night I had chicken and brown rice for dinner and had a super hard time with the fat that was on the chicken. I wanted to throw up!

Its funny how things that you used to love like MAYO, just the thought of putting that lard on my sandwich makes me want to puke. I have always been a sauce person. Not anymore. YUCK! I have also not had a french fry since April. Even the smell makes me sick. Its funny how you stop eating those things you can totally tell how they make you feel after you eat them again or even the smell of the grease.

Fathers Day I had my family over for a BBQ and my Dad brought a cake over for mine and Andy's birthday because they are a few weeks apart and he didn't know if he would be in town. SO for the last week there has been this sheet cake with mouse filling and chocolate cake sitting at my house. That has been super hard! I would grab my fork and just have a "BITE". Left the fork in the box with the cake. Then go back and do it again. Pretty soon it was pieces of cake. I would take the frosting off and eat the cake and the filling. MMMMM Chocolate cake and moose creamy YUM! But not good for my BUM! Thursday was garbage day and the cake went with the Garbage man. I am OK as long as its not here. I thought I would be OK when my dad left it because I didn't want any when everyone was here. NOPE ! That cake was TROUBLE! And trouble is not welcome in my house!

Allan and I were laying in bed the other night. I always lay on my side and he will put his hand on my hip. All of a sudden he starts moving his hand up and down on my side. (NO THIS IS NOT A DIRTY STORY) ANYWAY you PERVS-- I notice that his hand is not being stopped by my rolls on my side. I said "Hey did you notice that there is no longer a roll their were you can stick your finger in, to hold up your hand there without effort?" He said "YES! I was just going to say that!" I still have ROLLS believe me but they are getting smaller and I can tell. I am even a little off balance when I walk sometimes.

Last night I was thinking about my friend who said her little boy weighed 10 pounds at birth. I thought HOLLY SHIT I just have lost 10 pound of fat that was the size of a large baby! Then I thought holly shit! I have lost enough weight for 2 large babies. Then I look at my kids and can't believe that I have basically had 2 babies in 2 months! That is NUTS! They were not 10 pounders but they were all 8 pounds at least. Aubrey is my tiny one and she was the biggest baby 8 pounds 14 oz and 19 1/2 inches long.... Short and chunky just like her mommy! Not now she is skinny Minnie and still short! I tell her that I like being short because when you fall it doesn't hurt as much because you are closer to the ground!

Speaking of Fat babies! But isn't he so cute.. I just want to eat him! My little Rowan and the other picture is of my sisters baby Aislyn, Aubrey is holding her and Julia (Allans sisters little one). Aislyn is a chunk too. But she is starting to turn into a toddler so she is getting taller and not so much like a chunky monkey. I just wish adult ROLLS were as cute as baby rolls! Picture of me was Thanksgiving time. That might be my heaviest at 218. I might look a little drunk because I am! Too much family from all sides at one time..... GOD HELP ME IF I EVER GO BACK TO LOOKING LIKE THAT PLEASE PUT ME OUT TO PASTURE! Amanda that is your job! You are the only one that will tell me the truth! Well until next time! I will try to write more often. It helps keep me on track. I just loose track of time some days!