My long term goal is to loose 40 pounds. I am also going to post pictures each month on the same day. Well maybe not post the ones in my swimming suite quite yet. I have gained so much weight and I can't stand it anymore. I wish I was one of those people that just sets my mind to it and do it. I have a friend that just said to her self I am loosing 30 to 40 pounds and she did it. Seemed like to me it just fell off of her. She looks amazing. I guess she had a boob job to push her to want to loose it more. I need to think of something that I would like to look forward to having at the end of my 40 pounds. I know that at the end of my 40 pounds will just be another goal of 20 more pounds. Man I am feeling a little sorry for my self I guess.
I look in the mirror and wonder where I went. Buried in all that fat. I feel like my whole life has been a non stop diet or a non stop loose then gain. I need a life change a life adjustment. I need a life coach. Its hard sometimes to depend on just your self. Allan thinks about loosing weight and looses weight. Its not fair men can just drop it like its nothing. I have to work super hard at it. I know that there is the saying anything worth having is hard work.
I usually have a lot of humor about this subject but I have seemed to lost my humor especially when I put my fat pants on yesterday and they were no longer loose. If my life could just settle down. If teenagers could just stop being emotional, if I could just find a good job with benefits, and if I could just find my positive energy.
Well I guess enough of this feeling sorry for myself. Tomorrow will be a better day and another thing I am going to do is try to write a post daily. Maybe it will help hold me accountable for my work outs :)
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