Post 11

Yesterday I forgot to log on and post. OPPS! It was a pretty bad day as far as eating and working out. There was no workout and I ate M&M's from the bag while watching TV late at night. Man when I mess up I go all out. I am not giving up and saying oh well weekend shot to hell. Just move on to today.

SO today! I got up and got on the treadmill, did some strength training with my band, sit ups and push ups. The work out video is getting old so I thought I would change it up a little.

I have been stressed about this job thing. I feel like they just keep putting me off. Which they are. He put me off again until next week. I do have an interview with someone else in the same office for a different job. Its just a receptionist position but its full time with benefits and the other one is part time and no benefits. The part time one is more of something that I would want to do. But benefits are good. Anyway--I think that is part of my eating yesterday. I am stressed on what the best thing to do is. I also have moved onto the next faze of the jail job. That one would be interesting and has good benefits but shitty hours. I haven't even gotten an interview yet so I am really counting my chickens before they hatch. I guess I just hate not knowing and want to try to think about all the positives of all the potential jobs. Who knows I could end up with none. However, I am feeling confident that I will have a job by February. At least mid February. That might just be positive thinking but remember I am trying to do that more often. Its hard to look at the glass half full sometimes.

Like this morning I am laying in bed listening to Allan snoring like a bear. I didn't want to get out of bed. I didn't want to get up and work out. I had time to think about how much better I feel when I work out. I thought about the positive things of why I need to work out. Instead of why I didn't want to get my fat ass out of bed.

I got on the scale yesterday and had lost another pound. So I am down 5 pounds. I am disappointed that I haven't continued to loose a pound a day. I think it may have to do with my eating habits. I need to eat more and more often. Its hard for me to eat all the time I feel like that is all I do is think about food. What is the right food, what is the right amount of food. BLAH so much to think about while loosing weight. It almost becomes an obsession. I hear that it soon will become second nature. Can't wait for that to happen.

Well I guess I better get on with my day. Thanks for reading my ramblings and my side tracked thoughts.